So here I am. So desperately wanting to have both feet in on his spiritual journey. Yet knowing that to want it or just think about it is not going to cut it. A spiritual journey is something you live, something you walk. I am at the point in my life where theories and philosophies do not cut it anymore. I have struggled to be authentic in my word, speech and action for so long. See, I have always tried to do it on my own. Recently I have had this revelation. I am not good enough to do it on my own. I will never ever be enough. I will be on this continuous cycle of one foot in, one foot out for the rest of my life if I am left to my own devices. So here I am. At a cross roads again. I am sitting with a glass of wine and half a pack of cigarettes shared with my husband. It ends tonight. And tomorrow begins the 40 day journey that I hope will be the beginning of a fulfilling spiritual life. All I need to remember is Jesus. Every time I have a desire or an urge to do something outside of what I know in my soul to be true, I need to call on Jesus and he will see me through. Consider today a sort of "Fat Tuesday," before the long 40 days in the desert begin...
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AuthorLisa Cronin has been in and out of yoga classes for more than 10 years. It is her hope that by sharing her not-so-straight forward experience with yoga she will inspire others. In addition to being an uptight yoga instructor, Lisa is also an uptight mother of 2, uptight wife and uptight middle school social studies teacher. Categories |